Audra Caffrey - This Isn't The Me I Wanted You To Be Lyrics

I remember when you were small
Helping me decorate the Christmas tree
Stood on a chair doing dishes with me
Always beside me watching carefully
You grew up strong I was proud to see
But now you're lost and I feel helplessly
I see you slipping through my hands
Like sand in the wind fading fast
I've walked this road before I know the end
But I won't give up I'll fight again
This isn't the me I wanted you to be
I know the road you're walking
Cause I've been there you see
I prayed for your future
For light in your eyes
Now I'm watching you fall
It's breaking me inside
This isn't the me I wanted you to be
I've known the jail walls holding you in
You're lost in shadows trapped within
Your boys still ask when you'll be home
They don't get why you're out there alone
I've seen this pain and I know it well
But I'll keep praying you'll break the spell
Tents in the cold nowhere to go
The drugs and the pain steal the girl I know
I'll keep reaching no matter how far
Keep loving you wherever you are
I dream of the day you walk through the door
Your boys by your side the shadows no more
We'll sit and we'll laugh nothing to hide
Till then I'll hold hope you'll come back with pride
This isn't the me I wanted you to be
I know the road you're walking
Cause I've been there you see
I prayed for your future for light in your eyes
Now I'm watching you fall
It's breaking me inside
This isn't the me I wanted you to be
I once was you lost in the dark
But I found my way back still bearing scars
If only you knew the strength I see
There's a fighter, a mother, waiting to be free
This isn't the me I wanted you to be
I believe in you
Believe in yourself
And the me you were meant to be