November Video (MV)

I wish I could be different
I wish I'd be the same
I wish I could be constant
At least I know I'll disappoint myself again
Everything feels harder
I can't make it stop
You'd frown more than smile
I'd wonder if I'm better off
You are

I see your disapproval
It was something I said
I look for my removal
I shouldn't be awake but I know I'll go out again
Sleep's uninteresting
So I stay awake all night
Tomorrow comes too quickly
Always right on time
I neglect my own well being
But only care about myself
I'm not proud of anything
And I refuse your help

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You told me you miss me
I don't think I ever would
You told me I try too hard
I can't stop but I know I should
I wish things could be different
But I don't know what I regret
I build myself up on your feelings but
I hope a couple hundred miles will be enough to forget