Paula
How can I learn to trust enough?
And to stop believing all I hear are lies
Open my heart but just enough
To keep an open mind but never close my eyes
To the dangers I alert myself
Making efforts to assert myself
And discovering ways to hurt myself
That no one else has tried
How can I win if I'm not on my side?
How can I dare to feel again?
If I can't let go of past mistakes I've made
Living through each ordeal again
The faith that I misplaced, the price I overpaid
I've been able to endure enough
But I must not want the cure enough
I get back on my feet and sure enough
My hopes and fears collide
How can I win if I'm not on my side?
I live each day like emotions are at war
But I don't remember anymore
Just who or what I'm fighting for
When will delight be mine again?
Will it come or can it be that it's too late?
I want the sun to shine again
But I must walk away from the shadows I create
And though I tell myself it's safer just to hide
How can I win if I keep retreating?
Cheating myself is self-defeating
How can I win if I'm not on my side?