February Video (MV)

Two calendar pages torn since I've made my resolutions
You're cold, and you're only getting colder
It's nearing the end of winter
So explain the weather

I haven't let you go
Yeah, it disappoints me
I'm melting with the snow
But what does it matter to you?

It's for the best
If we put our talks to rest
And we won't speak like this again
After I pay off these debts

It's about you
It's about you
It's about you
It's about you

I'm ashamed to say I know you
Not because of who you are
But because of my pride and my sins

And so it comes to an end
Even though you've already ended it
It didn't settle in
Until I looked a little closer

It's about you
It's about you
It's about you
It's about you

Forget the amends
My stubborn heart can't just leave it at friends
I can't be everything you want
And I'm so, so, so sorry
I'm sure it's fine, I'm sure you're alone with her
In your candlelit living room
Oh, I don't believe you

A fake smile is all I need to keep going
When my words become stale
I'll have failed, and when the weekend comes to take you away
I'll miss your embrace, say a final farewell to what we made
I'll forget about it soon enough
Questioning if it ever even happened
Cheers to my surrender, I hope that she's better

We stayed up past midnight again
This time, I pretended it was just the two of us in the entire world
I pretended that everything was still the same as it was last year
It's a sweet thought, so I think it all the time
I'm happy you have a new anchor
But I hate the envy it comes with
I had a sip of "nothing" before we lost ourselves that night
And it was sweeter than ever
I had a nightmare that you found something else already
Something that made you complete, as I stayed broken
I woke up and realized; I'm living in that nightmare.
This has to be a nightmare, right?

But as long as I feel like I'm in between
With a weight on my shoulder and a hole in my chest
My calloused hands will someday forget those fingers

It's for the best and I need this
This time, I'm keeping my distance