Pozeg - SERENITY (prelude) Lyrics

I've been going through it reassessing identity
Look within myself trying to re-learn empathy
Self-destructive Zac walk paths I've enjoyed selfishly
World destroyed re-learning time
Nature became my remedy
With therapy and self-reflection came a sense of clarity
"My mother isn't perfect and my dad wasn't next to me"
Forgiveness is the key the next step in my destiny
I've been going through it while still in my search for serenity
I've been going through it probably will for eternity
Internally I'm hurting ego says: "act earnestly"
Try to bide my time and my dreams will be mine
Certainly
But as I age I feel the need for more time move urgently
I could die tomorrow and with this heart that could be a reality-
Karma
For the hearts I've shattered trying to be a better me
Or justice for the lies I've told in lustful moments buried deep

I'm not trying to justify my behavior or actions in the past or make an excuse-
But out of all the women I've used few gave me what I need
I was raised by sex addicts though so I am never pleased!

I resist my lustful nature engage in celibacy Live without sin until there's an apple to eat
That will cost me my Eden then it's rinse and repeat
I've been going through it in search of serenity
Talking to my favorite cousin he said
"Man just let it be- focus on your music words woven is necessity
The one who has been chosen to break a cycle and set us free
Pozeg is an image let them really meet Zachary
Let them meet the one who lost it all and sat in his
Defeat I've seen you in the booths back at it like they won't believe
Passion in abundance move past all the lies and deceit
Don't need no concern- just studio therapy
Mr Martin has evolved etiquette when he empty
I'm proud of you OG I hope you find your serenity"