Prple Hart - Is It Too Much, Pt. 2 Lyrics

Last time you heard me, I was only 16
Having hella nose bleeds, stressed out ODs
Wishing someone holds me
F*ck it you don't know me, that was trashy, old me
Now I need the diamonds on my wrist, now I
Now I go and f*ck her for some hours when I'm pissed
Now I'm trynna find a loyal bitch
Now I wanna tower over this
Depression defeated, addiction deleted
I'm looking for meanings, why am I singing
What am I leaving, if I'm back to popping the bars
What if I'm blacking out crashing the car?
What is the meaning of life?
Look over that now I'm living it right
Right? Baby push down cus she feeling so tight
Baby I might
Father forgive me for you know that I'm always sinning
I take no interest in partying with liquor f*cking up my system
Excuse my language, that's a hang up on how shitty I've been feeling
Sorry I feel no attraction, I know that it's been a minute
I was so lost and so damn alone
I no longer pick up the phone
I don't know a home
I found that I needed the time that I had
People were thinking I'm dead and I'm sure some were glad
I know that, I know that
I know that you were confused on what it would be like when I came back
But baby I'm back and I'm better than ever
I read all your letters
I gave you my sweater
So when I am dead you have something so you can remember
What it was like when you had my love
As we grew up we never had much
Except for our vices, not sure what our life is
I'm making these changes for me but also for you