Look
All my life really grew up from the pain shit
All my life really dreamed big mama said be patient
I was in the basement
Told 'em that I'm gonna make it now start to save up and to stack up all my payslips
Know they stay hating cause I'm being me
Know I did it on my own but you were never seeing me
Don't you come to me saying sorry cause you were never feeling me
Can't fall in love cause they always end up leaving me
Trying to find myself but always feel like I ain't getting close
And for my dreams I just hope that I'm getting close
Working on myself cause I'm tired of these f*cking hoes
Take me to the night where I almost died from a f*cking overdose
And looking at this life I've been starting to get it now
And it's hard to be myself I be forgetting how
And every single night I be crying stressing out
To the point where I'm sick and tired of shit that I'm letting out
Yeah
And I don't show it to you
But I'm just sitting here doing what I'm supposed to
And when my anxiety kicking in ain't never get too close to
And there's shit I be hiding from my folks too
And there's days where I wanna live a better life
Days go on but only looking forward to them better nights
And when I'm high is really the only time that I'm feeling nice
And off the molly is the only time I'm feeling right
Gotta find my purpose cause I'm here for a reason
God couldn't take me yet but I question what's the meaning
How I've been feeling there's a reason that I'm breathing
Trying to find a point to the point where I don't know where I'm leading
All I'm tryna do is leave an impact and affect
And all my life I've been living in grief and regret
Get some ice and some chains when I'm balling like the Mets
I'm just a youngin born with that love and respect
Yeah uh