UPC Bluii - IDK (feat. UPC Toby) Lyrics

I don't know what is going lately, yeah
I don't know why I tried to kill myself a couple of times
I don't know why I do feel so crazy
I don't know why death is on my mind, f*ck
People playing with my mind, playing with my time
Leaving me behind, but they don't realize that behind my closed eyes
Are tears, the cries, and I wanna just take this life away
Cuz nobody needs it
So tell me what's the point in keeping it?
"Don't say that"
"Why?"
"It gets better"
(Bullshit, aye)
Cuz I been stuck like this since I was 12, my mental health fell off the shelf
Like me, it's on the floor, I ain't feeling good no more
And I wrote a little note
I guess a suicide letter, it's ripped but I put it together
And it reads
"It's clear to see nobody needs me, I'm left to be on this scene
If you'd seen what I've seen, you'd understand why I'm doing this
This is the only way to make 'Balloons' pop
The day 'Balloons' pops is the day all this bullshit
The fire, the fury, the sadness, all my scars, all my tears, the madness stops
That's what I need, I'm gone"
I don't know what is going lately
I don't know why I tried to kill myself a couple times
I don't know why I feel so crazy
I don't know why death is on my mind
I don't know why I get these thoughts in my head, uh
I don't know why I think I'm better off dead, uh
I don't know why, oh, hell seems to be where my mind treads
I don't know where to find my f*cking meds, shit
Can somebody help please?
I'm f*cking done, man
Nah, f*ck that shit
I'm f*cking done
Uh, you shouldn't have to feel like this
Yeah, I know there's people you'll miss
"But I can't control any of this, I'm telling you
I'm completely just gonna end it right here, right now. So leave. Now"
"No, you're not"
"I said now!"
"F*ck you, bitch, do it then"
"I f*cking will!"
"Bye, bitch"
See?
That's the type of shit that happens to the victims
They ain't able to control what's in their head
All the voices
Do this, do that
People are the influence
Don't say "Kill yourself." without thinking of the consequences
Cuz that could be implemented
Stuck in their head
That someone in this world wants them dead
They are scarred, and their minds are barred
"You're insane"
"Shut the f*ck up!"
"Don't do this"
"I'ma f*cking get what I deserve and this what people are saying I should do"
"You don't deser"
"F*ck, f*ck, f*ck, f*ck, f*ck, f*ck, he did it, I'm going to his house, f*ck!"