15 Mill - Want Lyrics

Somedays I wake up
Feel on top of my dreams
Stayin motivated like on top of some wings
Other times I really don't
I just wanna believe
If I keep tryin the top then I'm gonna see it

Many things in the work | but i feel like a joke
Can't finish a thing | but work harder than most
I ain't makin enough | diggin outa this hole
Man I feel like a crutch | tryna provide for my home

You I | wrote away the pain
Tryna keep it the same
I wanna throw away the cards
But keep findin the shame
Meditate away you know I'm healin the weight
Feelin the weight | hittin the weights
But when I look in the mirror I ain't gainin a thing!!!

Gainin a thing!
Suffocate my mind started seein some things
Hittin the spleen
Hurtin this being
See i'm falling from the top but not hittin a thing!

I reach for help but doors slam in my face
I do my best the worst I can't erase
I keep on rhymin but can't get a break
I need some time I need to get away
Be-fore I pull the pin & blow my brains
Not cuz of what I do I'm breaking chains
I want some freedom but can only taste
And feel that is the way to fix my fate!!!

Got -
Dishes to clean & diapers to change
I got money to make bills breakin the bank
My wifey to stay boss raggin on me
I'm needin a change it keeps runnin away
While I keep it in order
Not fearin disorder see that I am sober
Don't need to disown ya
I'll know when it's over
Invite over some friends
But the toilets clogged up - oh man not again!

I just want to hold my babee
I just want some lovin lately
I just need some freedom maybe
I just need my God to save me

I just want to hold my babee
I just want some lovin lately
I just need some freedom maybe
I just need my God to save me

I just want to hold my babee
I just want some lovin lately
I just need some freedom maybe
I just need my God to save me

Evidently knew that I'd never land
Born in neverland where it is I never can
Or never can't... depends how you look at it
From inside, know that I never quit
Payin time hear my rhyme
Just another beggar pointin in a line
A lost soul turned around like a merry mime
Keep the hate turned up that makes two of mine

I just need to slow down do you feel me?
I just need to take a sec to smell the roses near me
I just need a couple dollars more do you hear me?
I just need to find another place that won't use me
I just need to watch my boy growin daily
Take care of my fam while I suffer in my feelings
Been let go but i thought that i was healing
I am not a "joe" so I'm showin ya'll the sane me

Hop in my crown show you around
While I'm inceptin you now seein the cloud
Dealing jumpin around go into town
Ceiling shakin it now quakin the sound
Feeling messin around where to go now?
Healing trackin the brow wreckin abound
Pealing layers go down never around
Kneeling breaking the ground merry go round
Concealing

I just need some silence
I just wish I may arrive yet
I just - I just made a rhyme &
I just wish it paid for all my time in
I just cut my lineman
I just - I just want to find it
I just - I just need to "QUIET"!
And see that I'm loved & timeless...

I just want to hold my babee
I just want some lovin lately
I just need some freedom maybe
I just need my God to save me

I just want to hold my babee
I just want some lovin lately
I just need some freedom maybe
I just need my God to save me

I just want to hold my babee
I just want some lovin lately
I just need some freedom maybe
I just need my God to save me