1ark - Fire and Fire Lyrics

I sit in my stu
Thinking of you
Reminiscing about my childhood
All we went through
Yeah that was the past
Already been 3
Always cross my mind
I hope you see me
This shit is real
It's been hard trying to heal
You and mom fought
But we always had a meal
That day you got smacked
Blink twice I couldn't believe it
Big like the hulk
But you should've quit it

Yeah you should've quit it
Still can't believe it was a secret
You did a lot for us
Why couldn't you do one more thing and get treatment
Still remember that day
I'm still shocked to this day
Regardless of what you did
I lay at night and pray that you are okay

Fire and Fire
Love and Desire
I'm no saint
But their was a liar
You were unnatural
Still walking after a bullet
January you left us
And I thought you couldn't

Fire and Gas
Some things just don't last
Coming home late
You in the kitchen trashed
Most nights were crazy
Felt like I was in a movie
But you were always there

Yeah you were always there
I'm wondering if you really cared
No I believe what I saw
You wanted to be a billionaire
Things got rough
And you felt stuck
You were a good guy
And it pisses me off you had bad luck

You were a money guy
But always thought about us
When I first met you
It was hard to adjust
You were a raiders fan
That always made me laugh
Could've went pro in football
Can I get your autograph
I'm just telling how it is
I wish you were here
Sometimes I dream about you
Then you just disappear
Remember feeling safe
Man you had no fear
I think about you a lot
And here it is another year

Another year and I finally found my girl
I wish you could've met her
She really changed my life
I know you wanted things to be different
My mom to be a wife
But ain't anyone like you
I always remember you dude
The memories are there
4 of July when we barbecued

Yeah some things just don't last
We are here for a purpose
Came into my life when I was 4
I saw you and I was wordless
But you were a caring guy
And I liked having you around
It's not just my birthday
It's yours I won't let how you passed die down

It's crazy to think that
We share the same birthday
I'm finally 21
I often wonder what you would say
Most of these skies are blue
But without you a lot are grey
Without you in my life
It get's harder day to day

I'm always there for Adriana
It's hard not having a Dad
I thought you were invincible
Nothing penetrate your iron clad
You would get jealous
But you just craved my moms presence
In the end you did a lot
Deeper than just Christmas presents