4sideheem - Myself Lyrics

I been going through some pain
I'm at war with myself
I was messing with plenty women
It was f*cking up my health
Had to tell myself must change
Hit myself with my own belt
So lately it's been f*ck you and everybody else
I said I wouldn't play you and was playin with myself
I said I wouldn't hurt you and was f*cking up myself
I said I wouldn't trade you and was giving up myself
However know I'm grateful because I'm praying for myself
Big bro had told me lil bro it's okay to be alone
I told him that I get it now that I done gotten old
Sometimes I find my peace when I be on that back road
Because lately I been stressing trying to write out my wrongs
I say I'm Gucci all the time I ain't talking designer
Had this one Zeta on my line always said she was finer
I would talk to her all the time but I had wrong desires
I would say that I was on the way but was sleeping with Lila
I know you really trying to fade I won't do you like wilder
You got a reason for a fade because I know I was wilding
Since I grown out my fade ain't been looking too childish
I lied to you in your face said I ain't know about it
Mad that you put your trust in me