I try to pretend there's such thing as a friend
But I know for a fact that I can't make amends
I try then cry, my whole life is a lie
I look in those eyes get high in the sky
It's all about pain and it's all about sorrow
I sit here and wonder if there is a tomorrow
They took out my heart tell me it's to borrow
Take it forever, stick in a whole arrow
I try to keep moving but my energy out
I need to keep moving and never have doubt
When I try to be happy everyone start to shout
I thought there was love but she only want clout
I always try but just get a shove
I don't understand the whole concept of love
You say it's just you but I know it's just me
I guess I'm not perfect, not meant to be free
Just lock me in a cell keep me out of the world
All I deserve is to go in a corner and curl
As my life fades away, sit and cry all day
I'll never forget what happened last May
I never get feelings over what someone say
Really was a gangsta don't have to portray
But sometimes I really wish I didn't have to stay
Even when I'm home I feel like I'm stray
This world ain't for me I might as well tap out
Who would even notice, or even start to doubt
Who would really care if it all ended now
The most someone say would just be a big Wow
I bet even my best friend wouldn't ask how
Or even worry about the last time they said chow
It's all about pain and it's all about sorrow
I sit here and wonder if there is a tomorrow
They took out my heart tell me it's to borrow
Take it forever, stick in a whole arrow
I try to keep moving but my energy out
I need to keep moving and never have doubt
When I try to be happy everyone start to shout
I thought there was love but she only want clout
I might end it all today you really never know
I don't trust myself to keep myself in the show
But I can't trust no one else to help me through the low
I never know if one day I will truly go
I'm tired of being put down always used like a punching bag
Everything go back forth like a 2 person game of tag
I seen all this before but it's reached the tipping point
The only time I'm happy is when I smoke a whole joint
My shots be on fire now that is forever true
But my heart still be broken, and nothin ever flew
I wish I could cry just to feel something even if it's pain
All I want is death that's what I keep as my main
Ten arrows in my head better then goin on
In a world that put me down that's just full of cons
Honestly this shit might all end today
I can't control myself, my whole life is grey
Someone treat me wrong I always know what to say