.50 Cal - Nothin' Left Lyrics

Sometimes I really wish I could pull up with a crew
Sometimes I really wish I didn't give a f*ck about you
I loved her so much even in the seventh grade
But I dismissed it as something that would fade
I tried to move on but I couldn't do it
I couldn't make it last
My life had gone too fast
All I wanted was to hear a gun go blast
For the bullet to reach my head and make me go out like flash
Quick and painless, make my life go splash
Take ten bullets to the head, bitch I'd rather be dead, I feel like everything just for pretend
Love isn't real it always ends, I couldn't be happy and always duck feds, I really just tore my
Life into shreds
I couldn't make life ever go my way
I couldn't get myself to be happy and play
The only time I felt was to cry all day
I had nothin left, nothing to say
I never talked even to my closest friends
My life was just a lie, happiness was pretend
I thought it would all end before the next year
But here I am livin with no fear
But I still can't live with any cheer
Rather take ten shots then a bellyful of beer
I saw so much death and so much suicide
One day I decided that things could take a tide
It started going well fell in love real quick
Threw it all in the can I came off like lipstick, yeah
I didn't have a plan thought I'd just roll with the flow
But then the current switched and threw me down real low
I tried to call for help but no one picked up the phone
I might've ran fast but everything felt so slow, yeah
Betrayed 10 times I can't trust nobody
They tried talkin shit started turning bloody
Had no family, never had a real buddy
No role models just desire for some money
You wonder why I can't trust anyone
My bestfriends introduced me to their gun
Jumped 2 times really ruined my fun
Everyone's a damn fake, but I still won
I got involved in many fights and many different lights
While I was wearin loose jeans you was wearing tights
I did so much but still couldn't make it right
I was waiting for something in my life to take flight
But nothing ever came, everyone became lame
My closest friends were leaving me for fame
They tried to calm me down but I was never tame
No matter what happened it was always me to blame
I couldn't make life ever go my way
I couldn't get myself to be happy and play
The only time I felt was to cry all day
I had nothin left, nothing to say
I never talked even to my closest friends
My life was just a lie, happiness was pretend
I thought it would all end before the next year
But here I am livin with no fear
But I still can't live with any cheer
Rather take ten shots then a bellyful of beer
I had no chance, my future was clear
I don't fear others, only myself
.50 Cal wit no pal call it elf on the shelf
I try to change but someday I'll go back
Breaking every promise, endin up in a shack
I looked into the mirror only saw death
So took 4 sedatives, hoping for my last breath
But I stayed alive, kept quiet for years
Until one day I could truly say cheers
Now I worry every day that I try it again
And don't get so lucky, or as happy as then
But now Ima grind and never stop winning
Until someday I look back and start grinnin