I don't know how to feel
These days I don't know what is real
It was 16 when I sat down and just started rapping
You n*ggas talking while I'm snapping
These b*thes steady keep Capping
I want the money ya the cabbage
That's why I'm chasing this dream
And I ain't stopping till I got it and till I'm off of the scene
I'm yelling god please forgive me for all the things that I did
And I ain't never had the things I had now when I was a kid
That's why I always look both ways while I walk in tho store
I cross my heart and pray to god before I walk out the door
And plus I'm always feeling cold feel like I'm walking through snow
And I been rapping fa a minute
And still my father don't know
Got evil emotions on my mind
Don't wanna sing it no more
Got all these demons talking to me
But I just can't let em go
They say Lessur you going make it
But then start telling me no
I tend to think about my life
On how I want it to go
So I'm just thinking to myself
About the things that I know
And I been crying through the night
Cuz I don't know were to go
So I been leaning on a b*tch
But I feel like she a h*e
And so I don't chill with n*ggas
If I'm not calling you bro
And I done seen some crazy things
That only my god would know
And so I stay toon myself
And don't let nobody know
I don't know how to feel
(These n*ggas talking to me all i hear is capping aye)
I don't know what is real
(I got these demons in me I can't let them go)
My heart my heart my heart like crow
I'm chasing there digits I'm getting this dough
I done did some things that my momma don't know
I love real hard baby so please don't let go
My heart different from these other n*ggas
Got me pulling triggers
Walking different got me talking different
That's the life I'm living
Never switching always thanks for giving
I ain't never quitting
B*tch Im pimping I ain't never slipping but I'm always tripping
Walking on my on and i hear a f*cking fire beat
Wake up every morning and I'm still fighting anxiety
B*tch don't tell no lie to me
I ain't never had to be
Different from these other n*ggas cuz
All these n*ggas capping b
I don't know how to feel
(No more I can't keep taking these pills no more)
I don't know what is real
(My heart lost in a different place i know)