Apologies, I Have None - Deconstructing Jim's Shoulder Lyrics

I was one step behind you with a ringing in my ears and the words locked in my head and as the thousands of us crowded forward, maybe to see or hear, but mostly to feel. It reminded me of the months before when we would drive for hours and sing at the top of our lungs until the words became our own. It became like a soundtrack of the year and forever after. Here we were, counting the seconds till the start and all the while it seemed like an ending. And I pushed on hoping you were beside me and I watched it come to life and f*cking explode infront of me. I could drown in that memory today. And we will talk about that moment forever even when you're on the other side of the world. I looked around me and everyone was there but for now I just wish you were all here