My Soft Machine Album Lyrics by Arlo Parks

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Bruiseless

I wish I was bruisless
Almost everyone that I love has been abused, and I am included
I feel so much guilt that I couldn't guard more people from harm
We listen to Loomer, lumps in my head I struggle to smooth
The person I love is patient with me
She's feeding me cheese and I'm happy
Like a Peony ripped by the chain of a dirt bike
I just wish I was seven and blameless
Going over the handlebars
Pollen sniffling over grazes
I just wish that my eyes were still wide

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Impurities

Piling in the Escalade
My chest is buzzing like a bluebird caged
Love like Juliette Binoche
You touch my leg to make sure I'm still there

I radiate like a star, like a star, star, star
I radiate like a star, like a star, star, star
I radiate like a star, like a star, star, star

When you embrace all my impurities
When you embrace all my impurities
When you embrace all my impurities
And I feel clean again

Oh, the look you threw me then
Was so intense that it was physical
You're the rainbow in my soap
You notice beauty in more forms than most

I radiate like a star, like a star, star, star
I radiate like a star, like a star, star, star
I radiate like a star, like a star, star, star

When you embrace all my impurities
When you embrace all my impurities
When you embrace all my impurities
And I feel clean again

Don't hide the bruise
When you know I'm watching, baby
Don't hide the bruise
When you know I'm watching, baby
Don't hide the bruise
I know it's hard to be alive sometimes

I radiate like a star, like a star, star, star
I radiate like a star, like a star, star, star
I radiate like a star, like a star, star, star

When you embrace all my impurities
When you embrace all my impurities
When you embrace all my impurities
And I feel clean again

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Devotion

Got me falling on myself but I don't resent you
Shaking to Deftones, glitter in my bones
Love you like I don't know better
Girl, I wanna protect you, I do, oh
Your touch embroiders me
I'm wide open, hmm

All yours, baby
Come down like a million tonnes
All yours, baby
Flood me with your nervous love
All yours, baby
Come down like a million tonnes
All yours, baby

Now I got my shot glass out the punch is stickin'
Tryna deduct blue, why do I trust you?
When you tell me I'm a good thing
Girl, I wanna protect you, I do, oh
Your eyes destroying me
I'm wide open, hmm

All yours, baby
Come down like a million tonnes
All yours, baby
Flood me with your nervous love
All yours, baby
Come down like a million tonnes
All yours, baby
Flood me with your nervous love

All yours, baby
Come down like a million tonnes
All yours, baby
Flood me with your nervous love
All yours, baby
Come down like a million tonnes
All yours, baby
Flood me with your nervous love

I think in a way, I've always loved you
I used to hate it when people said that shit
But I mean it
You make me feel free
Ripping it out of me like you feel

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Blades

I'm exhausted watching like Claire Danes through the water
Catching light like blades through your body, the party's ablaze
We grew apart when you were fighting with your sister
I don't think I realized how horribly I miss you now
Regret is flowering inside me while I'm scooping ice

Hope you know that I
I just don't know what to do
'Cause I only want to be with you

I remember there was something strangely romantic
In our friendship, we were dramatic, I wept in your arms
Talking for hours on the gravel, letting our backs burn
Walking to Boxers linking pinkies, wearing matching pearls
And now I'm struggling, I'm choking up without the words

Hope you know that I
I just don't know what to do
'Cause I only want to be with you
I just miss your voice
Say you've been alright
Callin' when you're lonely, late at night
'Cause I only want to be with you

So I make my way over as the white lightning zigzags
And you're with Ahmed, plum red slacks and tequila freezer
And you laugh the same, hand on mouth 'cause you hate your teeth
And I love your teeth and I'm scared to speak
'Cause I catch a whiff of your rosehip tea

But I, I just don't know what to do
'Cause I only want to be with you
I just miss your voice
Say you've been alright
Callin' when you're lonely, late at night
'Cause I only want to be with you

Only want to be with you
I only want to be with you
Only want to be with you

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Purple Phase

Saturday was rotten to the core
Whispering to Jodie on the floor
Terrified of turning 24, wet-eyed paranoid
(It's just a)
Promising to rise above the thoughts
Tried to flush her pills and get support
There's a centre in upstate New York, smoke blue lakes and talks
(It's just a)

I just want to see her iridescent charming cats down from trees
Mugler aviators hiding eyes that laugh when concealed
Saviour instinct tells me use your hands to drag her to peace
To a place she can sleep

It's just a purple phase
It's just a purple phase
It's just a purple phase
It's just a purple phase

Oh Jodie won't you tell me what you're holding on for?
Holding on for?
(It's just a)
I would find it all then I'd give it to you
I'd give it to you yeah yeah yeah

I just want to see her iridescent charming cats down from trees
Mugler aviators hiding eyes that laugh when concealed
Saviour instinct tells me use your hands to drag her to peace
To a place she can sleep

It's just a purple phase
It's just a purple phase
It's just a purple phase
It's just a purple phase

I want you happy, I want you happy
I think you're precious, I think you're precious
I want you happy, I want you happy
Oh you're so precious, you're so precious to me

It's just a
It's just a
It's just a
It's just a
It's just a
It's just a

It's just a purple phase
It's just a purple phase
It's just a purple phase
It's just a purple phase

It's just a purple phase
It's just a purple phase

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Weightless

Cardamom and jade as your eyes screamed
On the night you showed your volcanic side
And I'm afraid to need validation
Waiting for the day when you finally try

There are sandflies in the champagne
You're closed off, I'm so drained
But I sparkle in the rare case
That you tell me I'm your sunray
I'm starved of your affection
You're crushed under the pressure
But you won't change
No, you won't change

I don't wanna wait for you
Don't wanna wait for you
Don't wanna wait for you
But I need you so I won't go
I don't wanna wait for you
Don't wanna wait for you
I don't wanna wait for you
But I need you so I won't go

Tethered to the person you could be
Re-reading our texts from the strawberry days
Just give me a sign if you want me
Just give me a sign if you wanna stay

There's blue glass in the soft rain
You're passive, I'm in pain
But I sparkle in the rare case
That you tell me I'm your sunray
I am starved of your affection
You're crushed under the pressure
But you won't change
No, you won't change

I don't wanna wait for you
Don't wanna wait for you
Don't wanna wait for you
But I need you so I won't go
I don't wanna wait for you
Don't wanna wait for you
I don't wanna wait for you
But I need you so I won't go

And I usually know my strength
But here I am at ninety degrees bent
A metallic taste at the back of my throat
Watch your deltoid flex as you cough on the phone
And I've lost my grit and I'm in my head
You're so withdrawn and I'm standing there
Keeping wool over my eyes
Keeping wool over my eyes

I don't wanna wait for you
Don't wanna wait for you
Don't wanna wait for you
But I need you so I won't go
I don't wanna wait for you
Don't wanna wait for you
I don't wanna wait for you
But I need you so I won't go
I don't wanna wait for you
Don't wanna wait for you
Don't wanna wait for you
But I need you so I won't go
I don't wanna wait for you
Don't wanna wait for you
I don't wanna wait for you
But I need you so I won't go

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Pegasus

Fallin' asleep
Holdin' your puppy in your persian blue sheets
Never felt lucky yet
But I do right now, tell me you love me let me have it

Blood on your fleece
Grabbin' the cup and gettin' sick in the streets
Never felt lucky yet
But I do right now under the stars you trust in me

Blue jewels 'round your neck (oh)
Can cool my distress
Loose cherries, hard breath
I'm overwhelmed

I spun 'round and scream to feel elated when you hold me
And you got shy and beamed I think it's special that you told me
I think you're special 'cause you told me
I think you're special 'cause you told me
I think you're special 'cause you told me

Got the red eye
Just to be near 'cause my head eats me alive
You're makin' sure I'm eatin'
I call my mother just to tell her that I'm happy

I'll tell you the truth
Being with someone always made me feel used
Bet it would make me angry
'Cause I need love like a body with sugar, I need love

Blue jewels 'round your neck (oh)
Can cool my distress
Loose cherries, hard breath
I'm overwhelmed (ready?)

I spun 'round and scream to feel elated when you hold me
And you got shy and beamed I think it's special that you told me
I think you're special 'cause you told me
I think you're special 'cause you told me
I think you're special 'cause you told me

(Ready?)

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Dog Rose

You're jumping the turnstiles
And I'm feeling horrible, wearing your clothes
Gowanus and mezcal
It's your brother's birthday, the sky is dog rose

And I keep getting pangs when I look up, seeing you there
Doing dishes for your step mum

I hope it's not a big deal
You got me feeling hyperreal
And

I wanna belong to ya
Wanna belong to ya
Wanna belong to ya
I'm sorry if that scares you but I can't help it

I thought you could tell by
My awkward devotion to making you laugh
Your cat in my arms, dancing to Enya hard
Kicking out at your phone

And I'm watching you chew the side of your cheek
Nicorette patch peeking under your angel sleeve

I hope it's not a big deal
You got me feeling hyperreal
And I

Wanna belong to ya
Wanna belong to ya
Wanna belong to ya
I'm sorry if that scares you but I can't help it

Wanna belong to ya
Wanna belong to ya
I'm sorry if that scares you but I can't help it

I can't help it
I can't help it
I'm sorry if that scares you but I can't help it

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Puppy

Summer spread its wings
Grilling meat and burning out
Grady lost his mother, now he's sleeping on my couch
And I never felt loss like that, and I pray I don't have to
See him staring way out, puppy dog trapped in a small gray Honda

I know some things don't get easier
I know some things hurt forever
Hurt forever
Hurt forever
Hurt forever
Hurt forev-

August was a daze, hell and heaven all at once
Spilling out the duplex, lacerated by first love
And we're wishing we could take it back
And we're learning discomfort
And we know that when you make plans it doesn't go like that

I know some things don't get easier
I know some things hurt forever
Hurt forever
Hurt forever
Hurt forever
Hurt forev-

Shadow boxing the fear of death
Wim Wenders movies and awkward sex
Big mulberry stain on the tennis dress
I'm a star, I don't care what your roommate says
Wonder if the world might make sense
When we got three kids and our thirties end
But we're all scared kids and it don't make sense
We're all scared kids

I know some things don't get easier
I know some things hurt forever
Hurt forever
Hurt forever
Hurt forever
Hurt forev-

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I'm Sorry

Butterflies in my skull when you sat me down
At the Dayglow cafe
I know that I haven't been myself
That I lost my courage

Petrol in the air, wisteria and scrambled eggs
Try to pin me down but I can't stand to show you
He affected me

I'm sorry (I'm sorry)
It's easier to be numb
I'm sorry (I'm sorry)
It's really just hard to trust anyone
It's really just hard to trust anyone

Sky blue shirt and I'm so desperately hurt
But I know you're there
And I can't make myself open up
As the sirens blare

Petrol in the air, wisteria and scrambled eggs
Try to pin me down but I can't stand for you to see me like this

I'm sorry (I'm sorry)
It's easier to be numb
I'm sorry (I'm sorry)
It's really just hard to trust anyone
It's really just hard to trust anyone

I've been working incessantly
But that won't keep the wolves at bay
I been working incessantly
Like a wasp, feeling trapped and crazed
Tried to tell my therapist everything
Tried to meditate
F*ck the pain away
Tried to move out to LA
Dye my hair lime, be a saint
But I won't peek through the blinds I've shut in myself
And so nothing changed
Yeah I won't peek through the blinds I've shut in myself
And so nothing changed

I'm sorry
It's easier to be numb
I'm sorry
It's really just hard to trust anyone
It's really just hard to trust anyone
It's really just hard to trust anyone

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Room (Red Wings)

Pull up when you want me
I would
Pull up when you want me
I would

Itching the scar on my arm
Solo to keep me from harm, haven't heard from you
Since I bleached my roots
Ghosting me hard for a kick
Blowing me up when you need it
My wings are clipped and my head's in bits
Yeah we spent a summer so entangled
As the sugar browned
And you started hurting me
'Cause you were turning inside out
Yeah you know I'd pull up for you
Even when you let me down
I'd pull up, pull up for you

Without you, I'm devastated
Now I just want to eat cake in a room with a view
Without you, I'm devastated
Now I just want to eat cake in a room with a view
Pull up when you want me
I would
Pull up when you want me
I would
Pull up when you want me
I would
Pull up when you want me
I would

B roll of us in my lids, dusting the coke off your fist
You were so far up, I would worry desperately
Trying my best to be strong, then breaking down to my mum
Watch the gingko leaves as the windows steam
Yeah we spent a summer so entangled
Listening to Frank
And I never dreamed that you would lose yourself
So far so bad
Yeah you know I'd pull up for you
Even when you make me so sad
I'd pull up, pull up for you

Without you, I'm devastated
Now I just want to eat cake in a room with a view
Without you, I'm devastated
Now I just want to eat cake in a room with a view
Pull up when you want me
I would
Pull up when you want me
I would
Pull up when you want me
I would
Pull up when you want me
I would

We could've been immortal (oh yeah oh yeah)
We could've been immortal (oh yeah oh yeah)
We could've been immortal (oh yeah oh yeah)
But the dream fell flat without you
You were on a different page
We could've been immortal (oh yeah oh yeah)
We could've been immortal (oh yeah oh yeah)
We could've been immortal (oh yeah oh yeah)
But the dream fell flat without you
You were on a different page

Without you, I'm devastated
Now I just want to eat cake in a room with a view
Without you, I'm devastated
Now I just want to eat cake in a room with a view

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Ghost

I'm stumblin' around the park just to think
I'm always startled when the ghost of things appear unwanted
The swans are gliding as the wind whips and stings
The sapphire in my signet ring
I know that's it's been a while since
Came over, let you drape your arm 'round my bad shoulder
When I trust you I'll crush my composure
Wanna tell you the truth, melt right into you

Melt right into you
Let you be the glue
Melt right into you, you

Between the sheets of rhododendron and sky
I cast my mind across the day you said you'd always be there
I pushed a curl of hair away from your eye
And said "It's sweet of you to lie"
I know that's it's been a while since
Came over
It's hard to be unguarded
I know I come across cold
Dropping out like a stone
When I'm crumblin', but I owe you the truth
Wanna melt right into you

Melt right into you
Let you be my glue
Melt right into you, you

I'm so easily wounded
Glasses of pineapple juice out on the Heath
My head in your lap
You offer me space, wild bees and sweat
I'm scared if I tell you, you'll think of me as weak
I don't wanna be that friend who's always in pain
So I bottle it up, it hurts when I do it
We stare at the sun

Wanna let you in, wanna let you help me
Wanna let you in, wanna have transparency
Wanna let you in, wanna tell you everythin', everythin'

Melt right into you
Let you be that glue
Melt right into you, you
Let you be my glue
Melt right into you
Let you be my glue
Melt right into you, you