Oh shit! I'm a mess right now
Wishing I was by myself somehow
I'm trapped in some guy's sweaty basement again
Music playing, but they're talking over it
Oh God! Why do I shut down?
Party's like these remind me of my small town
I'll pretend I like what I'm wearing
He'll pretend to care about what I'm saying
"You're just not wasted enough" they say
Tonight's like the rest,
I can't change the way I'm feeling about this scene
It was never my dream
And I, I just want to genuinely connect
Without reminding my name every time you forget
I think I'll be okay
I'll find my place one day
Oh no! I'm crushing again
String lights in the hallways, but that's where the romance ends
I tend to fall in love with an idea
A boy, a party, like a movie
God, none of it's real
And it's different tonight because usually I'd be down for a wild crazy ride
Too much, I'm not enough to fit in here
I'll find the door while you go to find your next beer
"You're just not wasted enough" they say
Tonight's like the rest, I can't change the way I'm feeling about this scene
It was never my dream
I just want to genuinely connect
Without reminding my name every time you forget
I think I'll be okay
I'll find my place one day
Hey now I think I'm losing my mind
Kids my age would die for a glass of red wine
Guess we'll just wait for the sun
Finally go home and lie about having fun
No. I don't want to be weird
Now I'm fighting back tears?
Please, just ignore me
Shit. I'm stuck in my head again
Did he just say what I think he said?
Yup... It's time to leave
"You're just not wasted enough" they say
Tonight's like the rest, I can't change the way I'm feeling about this scene
It was never my dream
I just want to genuinely connect
Without reminding my name every time you forget
I think I'll be okay
I'll find my place one day