Abby Walker - Lonely But Closer Lyrics

Lately I long to be invisible
Like a sparkle on the water
Infinite - but no one tries to hold it
'Cause the sun won't let ya
Lately the mind chatter has been much meaner
It's flaring up my skin
There's a little girl in a pink hat who's trapped inside
And it makes me itch
She dances with dogs and her sister
No shoes by the river while it sparkles
She sings songs without thinking
Throws rocks without blinking
Water ripples
The more she sees the light
The less she tries to hide
The more I feel alive
I wanna feel alive
Lately alone in my bedroom
I smoke more than I used to
And it's cozy
Dreams of avoidant past lovers
I sweat under my covers
And wake up Lonely
But Closer
To the girl by the river
Flying kites, using scissors
To craft collages for her sneaky friends
Who will love her no matter what
She knows that they care because
She feels it
When they braid each other's split ends
The more she sees the light
The less she tries to hide
The more I feel alive
I wanna feel alive
And when she sees the light
My skin becomes less dry
That pink hat gets to fly
Like the old kites in the sky
The more she sees the light
The less she tries to hide
The more I feel alive
We all can feel alive
Lately I long to be invisible
Like a sparkle on the water