Big heart... might be the death of me
Cardiomegaly, always giving what's left of me
Wishing I could just let it be, just mind my plate & eat
But it's hard to let 'em starve holding recipes
Mama always told me I was selfish
Now I'm cursed to battle misconceptions
Hoping that she regrets it, hoping that shit gets better
Hoping she gets the message although I prolly won't send it...
Contradictions got my head spinning
I'm dead living with a sickness I was bred within
Ahead, different, my position it was hell given, self driven, dealt with it
Prolly need some help but I was taught to never tell niggas
Move in silence... let other people show and tell
I'll just do the watching, but barely do it for myself
I don't get the logic... I just stop trying, only focus on what matters
Ironically I never know what that is... tragic
Was left in the dark and blinded
But now I can see
My being is sparked, enlightened
Now I let it be
Never got me back... but I could never blame you
You could never match... smoking like a flame do
You're just like the past... I could never change you
Why I get attached?... growing up the same fool
No more, no more, who am I to me? I'm
So dope, so dope, shit that get them fiends right
Row row, row row, moving down the stream
Death is more than what you think 'cuz this life is but a dream
Niggas be clueless, we could never be that
Not even in your city trying to find out where the weed at
Meaning what I see past, my meaning they don't see
16 ain't enough, lately feeling like I'm 3 Stacks
Never fold like I got no knee caps or elbows
Road less traveled and these paths are cold
As I grow less matters, but still dash for pesos
Need that for Eggos, please pass the Legos
Out here trying to build my own paradise
Started with a dollar and a dream and a pair of dice
Looking for a contradicting being I'm the paradigm
Living in this hell of mine, seeing life through heavens eyes
L.O.O.K.! Look in the sky, it's a bird, no a plane
No the cursed by inert 'cuz he flow with the change
On the brink of insanity, this verse is about to tip it
Like the service was the shit, or the burden just can't be lifted
Was left in the dark and blinded
But now I can see
My being is sparked, enlightened
Now I let it be
Never got me back... but I could never blame you
You could never match... smoking like a flame do
You're just like the past...I could never change you
Why I get attached?... growing up the same fool
No more, no more, who am I to me? I'm
So dope, so dope, shit that get them fiends right
Row row, row row, moving down the stream
Death is more than what you think 'cuz this life is but a dream
Was left in the dark and blinded
But now I can see
My being is sparked, enlightened
Now I let it be