The Abyss - Rather Be... Lyrics

Time you wasted, who gone make up
So impatient, on your way just to
See my face and hear me say we're through
I can't say I'll be okay 'cuz
I've been tired sleep don't change it
Hope you wake, but I can't wait for you

(Why oh why? Nothings to somethings you always deal the kid)
Pop always told me be careful, stubborn neglecting the message, driven but wreck less
(Silent nights... Fussing and f*cking stay interfering with em)
Funny I'm top of my class but struggle with learning my lessons, I hate being tested
(Cyanide... Take a sip and let it be what it is)
Really that's all that you ever did, love sick, but patience running thin
Used to joke and send me toilet pics, now I hope you're on some other shit
You go to Twitter and Snap with your problems
Baiting these niggas who hoping you pop it
I f*ck a freak after downing a bottle
Just to remember that shit ain't gone solve it...
Emotional hardship... Just wish I was heartless
Like dearly departed
Tears in your eyes, asking you why
Say, "it's nothing," but I know it's something
Girl I hate when you lie, try to disguise
Barely trust you got me saying f*ck it
But u all on my mind all of the time like... why why why why

I think I'd rather be
I think I'd rather be
I think I'd rather be through
I think I'd rather be
I think I'd rather be
I think I'd rather be through
I think I'd rather be
I think I'd rather be
Don't approach or come close to me

Just turn your back and keep walking so I don't say what I feel
I'd rather hold what I bottle, girl you can't swallow this pill
I've got this hole in my heart just trying to fill it with real
But what is?
Uni baby I'll follow your lead
(Just show me one way out... and I won't have a doubt)
'Cuz where I'm meant is all I want for me
(Guess I can stick around to figure meaning out...)
Deep down I'm hurt but I won't let you see
(Emotions raining down, I'm sick of seeing clouds)
But if I'm telling the truth, I was glad to be close to you
(Hopelessly been hoping that you know what you mean to...)
I've got a problem with painting pictures of people they could never live up to
(A broken nigga coping with the coldest of deep blues)
I got a problem with commitment, that's what inconsistencies in love do
(Opening, exposing things, was never an ease to...)
I've got a problem with the mirror cuz that Nigga in it be pretending
(But you never peeped truth...)
Creating a distance from me and reality... or rather who I'd rather be

I think I'd rather be
I think I'd rather be
I think I'd rather be through
I think I'd rather be
I think I'd rather be
I think I'd rather be through
I think I'd rather be
I think I'd rather be
Don't approach or come close to me