Nineteen
Fresh into my college
Parents fell out of love
So I ain't never learn much about it
I had
A couple tries
With a guy who was too abusive
One fell out of love
The other took my heart
And used it
So I
Protect my feelings
F*cked
Instead of love making
Cause I'm too scared
Of what could happen
If I tell him about them
I'm Rolling Ls
To cloud away my thoughts
I ain't tryna be
In that place again
So Imma smoke that shit all off
All the kisses
All the hugs
All the times that you said we were in love
All the pictures
All the laughs
And even when
I was all done crying
I believed that
All the kisses
All the hugs
All the times that you said we were in love
All the pictures
All the laughs
And even when
I was all done crying
I believed that
It wasn't that way
It wasn't that way
It wasn't that way
(Told myself countless times, countless times)
It wasn't that way
It wasn't that way
It wasn't that
Way
(insert the man who really set it off)
Too many sorries
Too little change
How we break up
More than once
And you ain't change?
I blame myself
For having hope
And gluing pieces
To a heart
He already broke
I'll heal with time
That's what'll help me
But after all this Goddamn time
Why can't you tell me
Too many lies
Not enough assurance
Not enough heart
Can handle pain without insurance
All the kisses
All the hugs
All the times that you said we were in love
All the pictures
All the laughs
And even when
I was all done crying
I believed that
All the kisses
All the hugs
All the times that you said we were in love
All the pictures
All the laughs
And even when I was all done crying I believed that
It wasn't that way
It wasn't that way
It wasn't that way
(Told myself countless times, countless times)
It wasn't that way
It wasn't that way
It wasn't that
Way