adamariz - DEAR DAD, Lyrics

Yeah, dear
Dear dad, huh
Whoa, yeah
Dear dad
Hate to sound kinda cliche
But whenever I talk about you it makes me sad
When people bring you up I say, leave him in the past
They say but that's your dad
Okay cool but besides that
What kinda value did he add to my life
Mama was the one who took me to the light
Grandma said, hold on to your Christ
Church taught me that He's a good father
And when the night comes, not to fear
We gon' be alright
Oh wait, maybe that last one was Kendrick
Lecrae was more like a dad than you ever were
So now I'm quoting Corinthians like a shirt they never wore
The haters in his comments got me wondering
If I'm prepared for a war of my own
Cause I say some controversial things here and there
And without you to be there the fights just don't seem fair
I said, Lecrae, I wanna be just like you
Walk like, rap like, even get hated like you
Bump the chopped and screwed, then swerve in the H
Con la musica de Jesus, I wanna walk with the Jews
In the same streets you did too
Sit with them and read the good book
Maybe lead them to the truth
I said, Lecrae, I wanna be just like you
Walk like, rap like, even get hated like you
But the truth is I just wanna be hugged
I just wanna be loved
I just want everything
Only God can give
A kid who fell into sin more than people probably believe she did
I've been a hypocrite
Pointed fingers when I should've been on the receiving end
Cry myself to sleep so many times
Can't you see my eyelids?
I eat at Chick-fil-A
Does that make me homophobic?
I don't crave a relationship, but I do wanna say I do soon
Shoot, sometimes I feel like I don't even understand myself
So how on earth can I understand a man who crossed the river for a dream of wealth
They say the American dream is all a big scheme and I gotta agree
I done walked the streets they lived in and the only difference is you need a degree
To get your paper up and maybe cop some self-esteem
It's not all about them collard greens
But please eat your veggies
The women, the cars, the drugs, the TV
It's making the people think life is a big comedy
And it's all easy
But I've seen people born here ride to work on E
Struggling mentally, physically, spiritually I feel weak
Since grandma died, I can't sleep the same
I just lay awake
Trying to numb the pain
Trying to escape
Trying to find something that says I'm worth the time of a day for a dad
Is there a better dad out there for me?
Cause I know I could never find a man
That'll take me unless my thoughts are lying
Strictly speaking, I think if I walk down the aisle
And my dad isn't there
Am I a bad offspring for not inviting?
And not wanting him to see that I made it without his support
Which was really nonexistent except maybe somewhat financially
Child support didn't really do much
You owe my mama a couple G's
Guess I've gotten way too deep into a grave I cannot keep
Because this isn't mine to be in
This is where I lay who I wanted you to be the rest
Dear Dad, I really don't know if you tried your best
And I'm sorry I never got back to your texts
But I'll pray for you despite all this mess
And I hope you find God before your life ends
I'm fine, and I promise this I'll keep serving God with all I got
He's a good, good Father and He I didn't have to test
Woah