Admisity - X Marks The Spot Lyrics

Streetlights and the stop signs
Are starting to blur together like my eyes are two blenders
All night in the confines
Of my mind inside I wonder if this will last forever
Like a bad trip I must surrender
But I'll fake it till I make it, I'm just a pretender
Avoid the thoughts to void the costs
Pennies for yours 'cause I'm the thinker of what I consider
A lender, but they'll give back a letter
That says return to sender so I plan to send her
My thoughts, my heart, my lungs, my liver
But in between the ears with a Van I'll Gogh and get her
It drives me crazy, honest, I think I may have lost it
Perhaps my thoughts have learned to gossip
I just know I need her to stop it so come close for closure
Anxiety leaks from my mind's faucet

You have to learn to go on

X marks the spot for my addiction
She says
I can fix it if I will listen
She says
X marks the spot for my addiction
She says
I can fix it if I will listen
She says move
On
I will move
On
She says move
On
Will I move
On

Does she exist? Do I exist? I'm starting to question if I should even persist
My love for you, I long for you
But if fairytales aren't real and dream don't come true I might forget
But I'll push my fists against the fence
My body against it, I tense, this ain't pretense
Or is it?
I'm beginning to forget myself for something better, I'm losing my sense
My two cents is to not be a nuisance
I hate to say it but sooner or later I'll have to pull the noose in
I'm losin' my mind
But it's alright 'cause I know that soon enough she'll come by
Hopefully this time she'll stay a little longer
Just enough for me to study the reason she's not mine
Or why can't I go a single day without thinking of the reason or the logic
Behind my eyes, oh why
Why?

You have to learn to go on

X marks the spot for my addiction
She says
I can fix it if I will listen
She says
X marks the spot for my addiction
She says
I can fix it if I will listen
She says move
On
I will move
On
She says move
On
I have moved
On