Adotwiz - 2am in December Lyrics

I thought I could never feel pain
Got all these thoughts in my brain
I didn't know how to cope
I feel I'm slipping down a slope
I was always holding on
I was holding onto hope
When I heard my bro was gone
My heart couldn't hold on
I didn't know what to do
So I went down the ends
When I pulled onto your road
I seen my peoples them in tears
On my mums I felt a energy
Something in the world shift
Disconnect in energy
Never thought that this could be
Fast forward it's now December I'm still feeling like its mad
I'm feeling like its all a dream and this dream is flippin bad
If only i could move time
Id be turning clocks back
Its the reality im living man
Thats where its all at
This is a fraction of my feelings and thoughts inside my head
If my head was a book many thoughts to be read
Theres many tears that ive shed
Theres many heart's that have bled
One love to all my bros its all stuff that should be said
The panics been attacking me
Aint been moving happily
Anxious and anxiety
I been hurting actually
I jus reached capacity
Ant connected with my family
My heart has taken casualty
I'm tryna keep my sanity
Cause i like this of me
Blocking out the bad of me
Looking at my queen oh my god what a majesty
Watching over her got me moving like a canopy
And she makes me happy got me falling like its gravity
And to my little son i aint forgot about you
But life has made it hard i just wanna hold you
Im just praying to the lord i just wanna made do
In a struggle hurt & broke and cant see you
And dear mum i know youre sad right now
If you can hear me i want to you smile right now
And we're almost there we aint far by now
Have hope God will make it right somehow