Advice & MoneySign Hines - Notes 2 Self Lyrics

Came from the mud and I'm stuck in it
Selfish with love ain't no f*cks givin
I know my brother like f*ck prison
Mad that his father ain't come visit
Now he gotta a daughter to raise different
Now he gotta a son to give game different
Will he fall to the streets till the pain kill him
Will his kids live up to they name different
How did I cope at early age when momma digging a early grave
When I was too shy just to say my name destinys child In so much pain
God really took his time with me God really stuck with me
Know my past ain't pretty life a bitch with big titties
Trapped in my room all these thoughts that i consume
Thought that I knew it all expect myself
Had to learn how to accept myself - self
Never ask for help or a handout Gotta pick yourself up when mans down
It's all in the cards part of the plan now - plan now
Facing my fears not the smoke I know some people need hope
I know some people be dying to live it is what it is
Gotta find a way no gps can help you navigate
Through those rainy days
Ain't no application keep the pain from fadin oh no
Sometimes I feel like what I say is not worth
Sometimes it feels like that I'm livin in a curse
The demons they got worse, I'm just livin in my dirt
Every day I do the most, simply living in emotions
I write my own truths, I'm just writing down emotions
Venting what I feel, undevoted all distorted
Talking to myself I'm defeated with myself
Need to seek some better help
So I'm writing just to help
Alleviate the pain know some days I feel insane all these thoughts inside my brain
Finding balance to maintain
I'm just copin with my pain
Search for difference in my ways
Stop the cycles of the stains
Hope the feelin goes away
Tell me that I'll be okay
I need love and affection
Want my soul to be protected
I just wanna teach a lesson
That no matter what you can
Got to manifest ya plans
Even days when you feel stuck
Find a way to take a stand