aftrthght - survivor's guilt v5 Lyrics

I declare it in Jesus name
It's gonna be okay
Sometimes I ask why though
Like why me
(With) transgression, come along shame
My consciousness it reigns
I don't wanna fall again
Thought I was strong, I'm weak again
Get humbled and learn your place
Now I'm feeling the same disgrace that I seen on them people's face
Sometimes I think that God allowed it just so I could still relate
Self righteous, not the brightest take heed 'fore you fall away
There's valleys and there's mountains wish I could always be okay
But if that's the case then how I'm gonna preach the truth from a truthful place?
Don't look in my eyes
Please don't look at me
Don't give me a pretty pedestal for the whole world to see
Constant examination they all praying for your decease
Everytime I hit my face covered in grace, He showers me
Everytime I don't deserve it somehow you send more increase
And I never earned this favor in my life from you Lord, why me?
Haunting survivor's guilt got me asking, Lord why me?
So many days my tears flowing it could water a whole tree
Maybe that's why I keep growing
Cause you love the poor and meek
But I'm still asking why me
Why me