Still Trying Video (MV)

I guess I should expect a No
Each time you come around
Just 2 dollars to my name
No friends to be found
Dimming lights in my apartment
Bring a darkness that reminds me
I don't know where my mind is
I don't know where my mind is

Trying to string together one more stupid rhyming phrase
To yell out to the world the things I cant say to your face
If life is what you make it, man I guess mine won't improve
Cause I'm too dumb
To figure out what should be my next move

And I swear Im trying
It just isn't working out
But Ill keep on lying
Till the day you find me out

Discretion's not my forte as I sling out all these words
The night is young, my body's old, I just want to go home
If you could meet me half way I would make it worth your while
Oh you just sent me packing
Yeah I guess that fits your style

And I swear Im trying
It just isn't working out
But Ill keep on lying
Till the day you find me out
Even though Im trying
There's no upside only down
Guess I'll stand here drowning
Waiting till you come around

If I knew better
I would hang it all up
But this itch on my neck
It Forbids me to stop
The thought of just failing
It eats me alive
I bite on my tongue
And pretend I'm all right
I'll curl to a ball
Keep grinding my teeth
Don't worry keep walking
There's nothing to see
Some laurels to rest on
Is never a choice
I guess I'll keep screaming
Till I have no voice

And I swear Im trying
It just isn't working out
But Ill keep on lying
Till the day you find me out
And I swear Im trying
It just isn't working out
Yes I swear I'm trying
Yes I swear I'm trying
I swear I swear I swear I swear I