Aidystopia - Suicide Lyrics

The night's too quiet the thoughts too loud
Every breath feels like a heavy cloud
I'm on the edge but no one sees
A silent war brought to my knees
I've been sinking in this hollow space
Can't remember the feel of a warm embrace
Eyes wide open but I'm blind inside
Searching for a reason but they all collide
The weight I carry it's crushing me
Drowning in the darkness too deep to see
And I scream but it's swallowed by the night
Clinging to the edge too tired to fight
Is there a way out of this storm I'm in
Or is this the moment I give in
Suicide it whispers in my ear
Telling me the end is near
But I'm begging for a reason to stay
To see the sun for one more day
I'm not ready to say goodbye
But I don't know how to survive
I see the faces of those who care
But it's like I'm not really there
They say hold on it'll be alright
But they don't feel this endless fight
I want to scream I want to cry
But all I do is wonder why
Why does the pain never fade
Why does the light always feel delayed
There's a battle raging in my mind
A fight between life and leaving it behind
I want to stay but I'm torn apart
Trying to fix a broken heart
Suicide it calls me by name
But I'm reaching for something to reclaim
I need a hand to pull me through
To remind me there's still something new
I'm not ready to say goodbye
But I don't know how to survive
I hear a voice deep inside
Telling me to fight not to hide
Maybe there's hope maybe there's light
Maybe this battle isn't lost tonight
If I hold on for just one more breath
Maybe I can outrun death
Suicide I won't let you win
I'll fight through the pain thick and thin
I'll find a reason find a way
To see the light of another day
I'm not ready to say goodbye
I'm gonna fight I'll survive
I'm not ready to go not tonight