Ajwaria - Dead Of Night Lyrics

One week and there's red all on my cheek
Cause I see you next to me
And this has to be a secret but
All I know is that I'm losing control
And I have to find the heart
I'm convinced that you stole
Tell myself that I'm fine
As I'm drawing the line
But I know it's a matter if time till I
Stumble up and I fall
Losing hope of it all
When you gaze and you look at
Everything you'll say, everything was right
Always making time in the dead of night
Building up the strength, wanna do it right
Sick of waking up in the dead of night
I'm puzzled and perplexed about the words
As I ponder if I'm cursed
And I wander through the worst
Now I'm thinking bout the ways that I can help
Everything I've ever felt
But nothing seems to work out and
Tell myself that I'm fine
Crossing all of my lines
It's a pressing matter that I even
Opened up my heart
Thinking this was the start
Now all I do is reminisce on
Everything you'd say, everything was right
Filling out my time in the dead of night
Picking up my life, wanna start it right
Always waking up in the dead of night
In cold sweats, I will regret, getting new threats, I just wanna forget
All the times I felt alive, throwing out my fake smiles, as I try to survive, now I just wanna die
Degrading myself over five small words
Stabbed in my heart, thinking I went unheard
My effervescent soul, growing old, getting told
Forget him, regret him
I brought it on myself, telling you all that I knew
Perfect golden glows, are fading into blue
The memories I hold, stained in deep red maroon
I'm telling myself, he's one small guy
But every time I say it, it makes me want to die
Delusion is a game, I played it once again
There's no one else to blame, there's no one to defend