AK CEEZ - What If Lyrics

What if this, what if that
What if I never had a reason, a purpose
Cause she gave me belief, and she made it all worth it
She's my one blessing, among all of the curses
Keek's my everything, and keep me calm up on the surface
Even when I'm melting down inside like in a furnace
But I think, what if mom was still alive and still shining
In this present time, and still a part of our lives
If they found that tumour sooner, no doubt she'd have survived
Cause she had the heart of a lion, no fear like a Viking
Right to the end, her courage that was so inspiring
She's my hero, she my idol, now that their is no denying
But what if I'd stuck into the rapping when I had first tried-it
Cause mom she believed in me, I wonder what it could've been
If I'd just kept chasing that dream since a teen
No if's or buts though, see it all must have a meaning

What if being a dad had never happened
What if the doc saw moms cancer an' catch-it
What if back then I'd stuck to the rapping
What if I never survived the car crashing
What if my dad had never become a smack-head
What if I stuck into my English n' maths shit
What if I had a son, although I know that never happened

What if this, what if that
What if I died sat in the car when I crashed it
Never even had a license, hadn't even passed it
A dumb kid, doing dumb shit, these lessons yeah I grasped it
That's fact shit, never drive intoxicated kids
That could've been a one way ticket to the grave-shit
But what if I had never met my real dad back in the day
Cause I don't think that anything good from that has ever came
From his family name, hence why I changed my surname
Growing up with a smackhead dad, yeah I felt that shame
An addict or not, the drugs a choice, your kid you made
For a lot of my problems, yeah him I truly lay the blame
Like what if it weren't that way, I could've aced school
Maybe then I wouldn't have been a class clown, acting the fool
I could've stuck to education, instead I was always excluded
But what can we do, this life's played out like a movie spool

What if being a dad had never happened
What if the doc saw moms cancer an' catch-it
What if back then I'd stuck to the rapping
What if I never survived the car crashing
What if my dad had never become a smack-head
What if I stuck into my English n' maths shit
What if I had a son, although I know that never happened

What if this, what if that
What if little Apollo had really happened
I think back on that situation sometimes and yeah ask it
But who's to know
Wasn't best of places, maybe best it hadn't
I'm feeling selfish even thinking it
Since I got some youngers didn't get the chances
Life's cruel we got to take the cards we're handed

What if being a dad had never happened
What if the doc saw moms cancer an' catch-it
What if back then I'd stuck to the rapping
What if I never survived the car crashing
What if my dad had never become a smack-head
What if I stuck into my English n' maths shit
What if I had a son, although I know that never happened