Al Montes - Prayer for the Night Lyrics

Hi, it's me again
Look, I just want to make things clear
No subtlety, just transparency in fear
I hate to say this cause it gets me in tears
But it's hard to keep believing that this feeling is real
I mean, well
I feel you're there, yet I'm trapped in an empty noise
I'm silent cause the only thing I expect is your voice
Once again, expecting a sound from a supernatural void
Trying to rejoice, but no joy is spilling as I'm stuck with a choice
Should I keep this belief after saying this prayer in bed
Or should I have my soul lay next to the burdened dead?
Some be speaking in tongues, but I'm tongue-twisted instead
Fighting but failing while falling from feelings I'm frighteningly fed
If there's a chance for me to express in a more direct way
I would still be afraid to make a statement while I pray
And I'm on the defense when I have stress, I feel unsafe
Cause I must've betrayed this taming holy curse that we call faith
Trying to be faithful
But to keep it it's painful
It's just a choice that I have to keep tight
I'll lay to rest as I pray for the night
Okay so, I brought up this moment to bring up this chorus
But even some prayers tend to get repetitive
This is affirmative, taking initiative
Opening up like a talking thesaurus
But not as a Bible, is quite just an irony
Believe in a God, but think scriptures are fallacy
Fantasy, doubts I see, nothing but blasphemy
Just like I'm screeching, "Sorry, not sorry"
Tired of this shit, there's things I might foresee
No prophet, but I'm not free when I have this anxiety
Cause people keep pillaging and killing all beings
While they're wasting their lives, they keep stinging like bees
All I see in the media, killers and tyranny
Then we have the leadership lacking what's canny
So naturally, part of me questions reality
Bigotry, wars? This f*cking world's in insanity
Oh my, I'm sorry, I apologize for my words
But witnessing all of this? Is just too absurd
I only hope, for our sake, that there's any worth
To keep on with this pressure anymore
Trying to be faithful
But to keep it it's painful
It's just a choice that I have to keep tight
I'll lay to rest as I pray for the night
It only takes a minute to say just a prayer
But it can take a lifetime to get something greater
And scars are remaining still just like a crater
Marked by the chains of fate like I'm Kratos
No pain has no gain, better break every layer
Prepare for that day, could be sooner or later
Cause if rapture takes place, watch out for all of the haters
Hypocrites using Christ's name against the Creator's
Creations, faithful or not, they'll always be human
Beings with feelings, no possible reason
For hatred to flow, so Lord, while using this pen
I may need all the strength, like a protective immunogen
So I pray for a new day to be a 20 outta 10
For an opportunity for all of us to take part in
That we become open-minded to make amends
That different mindsets come to an understanding
I pray that global loathing disperses never felt again
For a universal love, a place for all lovers and friends
That thoughts and prayers become realistic actions instead
That my actions have an effect that's positive and long-standing
I pray that we open our emotions so we can't pretend
I pray that our stories can have a greater end
I pray that the future makes me a better man
I pray that talking to you wasn't all for nothing
Amén