Alana Lucier - My Demons Lyrics

Why am I not present today?
All I wanna do
To numb the pain
Is keep my mind at a peace
Thinking about you daily
Will only get worse by the minute
Even I, even I
Can't stand this
Clouded memory
I barely can see
What's right in front of me

I don't wanna give up
But I know
I'm not enough
I cannot be there for you
Right now,
You've got to face your demons too

Will I (will I)
Wait for (wait for)
The worst to come at my door
Close my eyes
There's the light I was looking for

Will I (will I)
Wait for (wait for)
Myself to turn back once more
Close my eyes
There's the light I was looking for

My mind is stuck in these thoughts
Like a hand
Is chaining my luck
I want to
Always look up
So this time
I'm not walking out

I don't wanna give up
But I know
I'm not enough
I cannot be there for you
Right now,
You've got to face your demons too

Will I (will I)
Wait for (wait for)
The worst to come at my door
Close my eyes
There's the light I was looking for

Will I (will I)
Wait for (wait for)
Myself to turn back once more
Close my eyes
There's the light I was looking for

At this point
I can't turn back
Cause nothing ever works like that
Somehow I'm always on this path
Sitting on my demons lap
Somehow I'm always on this path
Sitting on my demons lap

Will I
Wait for
The worst to come at my door
Close my eyes
There's the light I was looking for

Will I
Wait for
Myself to turn back once more
Close my eyes
There's the light I was looking for