Alayisha - Here I Am Now Lyrics

I talked to my therapist today
She told me it's okay
Not to be okay
I said I have a life to live
I don't care what she did or what she said months ago

45 minutes go by
I'm sitting in my room thinking about why
Must I feel these things in my heart
I don't wanna be teared apart

Okay here I am now
I'm feeling all my feelings and I don't know how
I kept it under wraps for as long as I did
Now I'm breaking down and I need a plan

I put it in a box
I kept it far away
I told myself that if I thought about it
I would break
Cause I can't take more pain
I think I reached my cap
I don't know how to act
I think I finally cracked

I think I finally cracked
Now I can't hold it in
It's just as bad as I thought
I wanna push it back in
But it won't go away
I have to feel it through
I have to feel it through

Okay here I am now
I'm feeling all my feelings and I don't know how
I kept it under wraps for as long as I did
Now I'm breaking down and I need a plan

Okay I'm feeling it now
I think Leaman would be proud
My thought are doing it's own thing
My eyes are leaking and so is my brain

Help me
Find me
I don't wanna be this little girl who's crying to herself on the floor
I don't wanna do that anymore
Show me
Teach me
I been having difficulty tryna be the person I was before
I think I need more

Help me
Find me
Show me
Teach me
I'm having difficulty
Tryna believe
Tryna believe
It's gonna be okay
It's gonna be okay

Okay here I am now
Okay here I am now
I think I'm feeling it now
I think I'm feeling it now

You should be proud
I think I'm feeling it now
I'm feeling it now
I'm feeling it now
I'm feeling it
I'm feeling it
I'm feeling now
No

Okay here I am now
I think Leman would be proud
Okay Here I am now
The feelings are getting too loud
Okay here I am now