Alec James Payton - Honesty Lyrics

Well some things aren't so easy to explain
But how much of my honesty can you take
Well I guess I'll tell another lie
The truth is I've been trying to out-gamble my regret
And every time I turn my hand I just see losing bets
But I will try my luck one more time
And all the bottled messages I threw into the sea
I'm finding them unopened and washed up on the beach
But I keep on fighting the tide
Will my skin heal, will my skin rot
I fell behind but I haven't been caught
And I've learned lessons I haven't been taught
There's something in the sorrow that tastes like nicotine
Thinning out my bones, yellowing my teeth
But how can I kick the habit now
The faces of my foes and my captors look amused
Saying "don't you think it's a little late to be starting new"
"But I, well I'm taking my time"
Cause I can't even cheat I'm out of cards up my sleeve
I'm swearing on things I never thought that I'd believe
I'm sorry, but you asked for honesty
My skin can't feel what it once had felt
And I'm not sick, but I'm sure not well
And you want a lie that I can't tell