alexci - buzzkill Lyrics

Remember that night
Laying under the moonlight
You told me I looked so pretty
And you hoped our babies had my eyes

Grab onto my hand
Feel your skin on top of mine
You look just like a star
You'd be the brightest in the sky

What happened to my boy
Now your eyes are full of lust
I see you watching her
While I lay here untouched

You reached into my soul
You aided all my cuts
Showed me everything I know
But you took all my self love
Should have known you'd never stay
Cause no one ever f*cking does
Used my pain as your foreplay
My healing always killed your buzz

Was I supposed to act like I was blinded
To the facts
Turn away from the obvious
Like I can't see through
You like glass
I guess you never noticed
All the times that I fake laughed
All the times I questioned my own worth
And almost relapsed

No I was never good enough
No matter what I'd do
Looking at the pages
See my heart on the menu
You take everything out on me
While I'm still confused
I will put my head down take your lashes
So we don't argue

You reached into my soul
You stitched up the wounds
Showed me everything I know
But then you left me blue and bruised
Should have known you'd never stay
No they never f*cking do
Use my pain as your foreplay
Pretend it doesn't captivate
I know you'd be ashamed to say
You get turned on on mothers day
Cause its a day you watch my face
And tell me that I'm just like yours
Remind me that you love me still
You always have and always will
I know you never feel the guilt
Calling me a god damn buzzkill