If the medicine isn't working
I can't just sit and overdose
I can't pretend that this is working
When I'd feel more loved by a ghost
I know the bloods on my hands, but you pulled the trigger
Just because I did it, doesn't mean it's my fault
I know the time has come to kill you again
But I know this time it'll be the end
It's like a waterfall but it's all in my head
Unbalanced chemicals washing me over the edge
All the memories I'm trying to forget
And yet the pressure builds, I'm drowning in my own head
I'm only hungry when you starve me
I only want what I can't have
Take my food away from me so I appreciate what I once had
I know the bloods on my hands, but you pulled the trigger
I know the bloods on my hands, but you pulled the trigger
I know the bloods on my hands, but you pulled the trigger
I know the bloods on my hands
It's like a waterfall but it's all in my head
Unbalanced chemicals washing me over the edge
All the memories I'm trying to forget
And yet the pressure builds, I'm drowning in my own head
I'm only hungry when you starve me
I only want what I can't have
Take my food away from me
I don't deserve it
Leave me to die
I spent my time wasting away
In hope you could see my suffering
But you couldn't see past the mirror you put in front of you
In front of you
Breathe in, breathe out
Take a look around
Tell me do you feel happy without your feet on the ground
We spent the nights wondering when it'll change
Wondering if this was the end of just a blessing without a face
We both know we are destined to die alone
So we shouldn't just sit and wait for a miracle to change the way we feel about outselves
Cause at the end of the day we both know the bloods on both of our hands
I have done all that I can
We all make mistakes but that doesn't help
I'm sick of my own skin and bone
What are we fighting for?
We spent the nights wondering when it'll change but it'll all stay the same
You can't find hope in yourself so I will die without your toxic hands