alli h - the belong song Lyrics

Finding white pills in my mattress
Finding blue pills in my dreams
And I'm looking up my feelings on reddit
And I think about drinking gasoline
And I'm trying to give myself a chance
What a f*cking joke that is
I go outside and try to learn the dance
And everybody else knows what it is
I don't belong anywhere
I don't belong in my skin and my hair
And I don't belong in the mirror that I stare
Yeah the voices are muted but they're still there
And I swear I've tried
I swear to god I've f*cking tried
But I've never been satisfied
And I've never been really alive
A mass shooting
Too much weed
My ex is calling
The neighbors a creep
Minimum wage
On a deadline
Sell my soul
For more hours of their time
Another drug test
Another hurricane
Forgot my birthday
I'm f*cking 19
Got some road rage
Syrup and some Styrofoam
This girl on Instagram is
Dancing in her summer home
And I don't belong anywhere
I don't belong in my skin and my hair
And I don't belong in the mirror that I stare
Yeah the voices are muted but they're still there
And I swear I've tried
I swear to god I've f*cking tried
But I've never been satisfied
And I've never been really alive
I can no longer afford my therapist
I'm withdrawing on my antidepressants
I'm waiting for the doomsday announcement
Maybe then I'll finally get it
I'm a f*cking narcissist
It's the end of the world for me
I'm such a f*cking narcissist
That I'm the only one who sees
That I don't belong anywhere
(I'm a f*cking narcissist)
I don't belong anywhere
(I'm a f*cking narcissist)
I don't belong anywhere
(I'm a f*cking narcissist)
I don't belong anywhere
(I'm a f*cking narcissist)