Allyson Horner - If I'm Being Honest Lyrics

If I'm being honest, most days I am afraid
Usually of things that have no warrant
Sometimes of things that I, I can't even place
If I'm being honest, sometimes I feel alone
Though surrounded by a couple billion people
All running in some never-ending race
I feel out of breath and short on faith
I'm so tired of feeling second rate
I just want it to all magically appear
So where do I go from here?
Since I'm being honest, it's not that I'm unloved
Though I can't count the hurts that may not ever heal
I can count that hands that prayed me through the pain
And since I'm being honest, it's not that I'm unsure
I've got a friend who made the turn in every road
Who works in ways that I cannot explain
It's not that I doubt Your grace
I just want to hear You say into my ear
Where I should go from here
If I'm being honest, today I am amazed
That even in a world of so much hatred
There are those who try to keep it all at bay
And if I'm being honest, it makes me want to find
My place inside this big, confusing puzzle
Or at least to share some light along the way
To fight the lies with what I know is true
To find the faith I need in You
To believe without a doubt that You are near
Wherever I go