I just can't believe what's happening to me
What'll happen to my children or my family
Days have gone by but still cry
What will they do if i'm not by their side
They don't want me to go
But i can't stay here anymore
I've laid in this bed
But i'm still tired
I need to rest
But i wonder how you feel if my heart stopped will you be scared
Will you be cold
Would you think to yourself "I can't live anymore"
I wonder how you feel
If the hospital doors closed
After the doctor told you mamas not there no more
In the midst of my storm i try to find you lord
Cause everyday i say "i can't do it no more"
You see all the pain i hold in my heart
These accusations are tearing me apart
Tomorrow may be a better day
But today was my tomorrow yesterday
Help me understand
Lord what is your plan
I'm sick and tired of all the fussing and the fighting
Sick and tired of all the cussing and the crying
Sick of all the pain
Will it ever go away
I swore i wouldn't give up keep on trying
I promised i would think of all the children who are dying
I'm going Insane lord help me find my way
But i wonder how you feel if my heart stopped will you be scared
Will you be cold
Would you think to yourself "i can't live anymore"
I wonder how you feel
If the hospital doors closed
After the doctor told you mamas not there no more