Amélie Farren - Heaven's Gate Lyrics

I created those around me
Though I don't know which is worse
'cause playing god is funny
Till you have to choose
Who's dying first

I became the thing I feared
Taking their lives in my hand
My innocence had consequences
That I still don't understand

I was told that I was vital in the
Plan to save my life
So I promised mine in hopes
I'd be the one holding the knife

Our bodies were the vehicle
Transporters of the soul
I was young and bold and stupid
In a six-foot self-dug hole

Was I the only one to question
Anything they said?
I take it back I'll follow
Till I fly or till I'm dead

My immortal evolutionary traits
Are still intact
I am unapologetic
For the sympathy I lacked

I left my body back in
California 'cause I'm weak
Overdosed on phenobarbital
It's part of my mystique

So in '97 I gave up my future
I'd been raised
To reject my human nature
In the hopes that I'd be praised

I thought SOS meant save our souls
Instead it meant jack shit
'cause nobody came to help me
When I told myself I'd quit

I trusted blindly was it wrong
For me to latch on tight?
'cause I didn't realise nettles stung
And apples weren't all white

Ignorance is bliss or maybe
Ignorance is bait
'cause I didn't deserve heaven
But I'm standing at its gate

Was I the only one to question
Anything they said?
I take it back
I'll follow till I fly or till I'm dead

My immortal evolutionary traits
Are still intact
I am unapologetic
For the empathy I lacked

I left my body back in Cali
I'm not bothered to return
The taste of apple sauce
And vodka aren't my main concerns

Giving up is easy
When the default's to survive
'cause a better life will only cost
Three quarters and a five

I'll meet you in the promised
Paradise we often preach
So I'd hope for liberation
But that isn't what we teach

My immortal evolutionary traits
Are still intact
I am unapologetic
For the apathy I lacked

I left my body back in
San Diego, Santa Fe
They could tell me

F*cking nonsense
With the knowledge I'd obey