Amistad - LOST, THEN FOUND Lyrics

I'm abusing these drugs
Now I can barely sleep
Yeah
My mama told me stay up out them streets
Yeah
I'm watching my back
'Cause they just gone stab me
I lost myself but these streets done found me
I'm praying to God
Seem like he don't wanna help
No
I'm trying my best not to score again
To stay out the end zone
I look in the mirror, I'm seeing myself
I'm looking dead and gone
I pour up a deuce, get straight to the truth
And put 'em in my songs

I ran outta faith, I ran outta love
I'm not the brightest one
She slandered my name
When I was down on my dick
I thought she was the one
I stopped fighting my demons
And looking to God
Feel like he owe me sumn
I wanted to kill myself
But this is what's the outcome
My hands in the sky, I'm lashing out now
Ain't got no f*cking body
I tried my hardest, now I'm broken
Ain't no lying 'bout it
I hated myself, felt like I was dying
I used to cry about it
I'll never find my peace
Because my judgment's f*cking clouded

I'm abusing these drugs
Now I can barely sleep
Yeah
My mama told me stay up out them streets
Yeah
I'm watching my back
'Cause they just gone stab me
I lost myself but these streets done found me
I'm praying to God
Seem like he don't wanna help
No
I'm trying my best not to score again
To stay out the end zone
I look in the mirror, I'm seeing myself
I'm looking dead and gone
I pour up a deuce, get straight to the truth
And put 'em in my songs

My shoulders get weak, they feel heavy
(I tried my best)
Try running the mile
While keeping it steady
(I tried my best)
They feeling my pain
But don't get me
(I tried my best)
I was begging for help, they ain't help me
(So what you do?)
I'm looking to drugs, I start to abuse 'em
Ain't loving no more, I gotta kill Cupid
I left her alone, that's good execution
It took me some time
A nigga went through it
I'm smoking on weed
When I get in my feelings
I need me 136 million
Dear mama, I love you
I know that I'm sinning
I tried my best, and got further from winning
I'm thinking revenge
Then my face get to grinning
I want a lil' daughter, to learn how to love
I'd tell my lil' boy
There's more to wearing gloves
Learn from his sister, teach him how to love
Get you a woman, who ain't into slugs
Get you a man, who ain't into drugs
Take care of yo mama, whatever she does
'Cause I'mma be fine, It is what it is
I'm pouring my soul, I hope you can hear it
'Cause breaking your heart
End up killing my spirit
I dream about dying, and they be so vivid
The gun to my head, and now I'm fearless
Doubted me, yo' God's a witness
Marri asked if i'm a killer
I'm exhausted, ain't no feelings
Only time, when I'm loving my children

I'm abusing these drugs
Now I can barely sleep
Yeah
My mama told me stay up out them streets
Yeah
I'm watching my back
'Cause they just gone stab me
I lost myself but these streets done found me
I'm praying to God
Seem like he don't wanna help
No
I'm trying my best not to score again
To stay out the end zone
I look in the mirror, I'm seeing myself
I'm looking dead and gone
I pour up a deuce, get straight to the truth
And put 'em in my songs