Andrew Rinehart - This Time I'll Try Lyrics

This time I'll try
To take control of my life
I'll get up out of bed
Knock this confusion from my head
Why can't I be half as free as I wanna be
As I know I should be

Then the next day I'll fly so high up into the sky
I'll swear I can't be beat
And run a f*cking marathon on no sleep
Why can't I hold on to this cloud nine I get on when I stay up til dawn
I swear it's always long gone the next day
When I go to turn it back on

I gotta refill my cup
And it's never ending
But I'm in love with you I'm in love with you
Can't you see it's impending
And it will be neither doom nor gloom
More likely you will swoon
And invite me up into your room
We'll be glowing like the moon
As I enter your womb
Oh whoops is it too soon to say such things
Ok yeah I'm sorry
Can I come back another day
No? FUCK

So the next day I'll cry
So hard I nearly lose my mind
I'll straight up wish that I was dead
And wonder why I even got out of bed
And then it's one more drink and I'm done
Mississippi God Damn there's nothing under the sun
And we're all staring at a gun
So we might as well yeah
Try and have some fun

Won't you give me a chance
Just once perchance to sleep or to dream
Laying by your side
Cuz I don't want to be alive
Unless you are there and I can play with your hair
And place it softly over and behind your pretty little ear
Year after year we ain't got nothing to fear
No we ain't got nothing to fear
Oh yeah because

I can't tell how I know or what yeah it means
We were just meant to be
So naturally

So maybe this time I'll try
To take control of my life
I'll get up out of bed
Knock this confusion from my head
Cuz I don't wanna be sad

I don't wanna be sad