Ansel - The Naysayer Lyrics

I like to hike in the rain
I fight despite this grin of pain
To try to die slow everyday
So I can suffer a bit more to display
What I have found within the fray
Jacob has split into gray
I don't know truth but what can I say
I say things I don't remember saying
Acting like peoples minds I be draining
But it's my own I've been playing
I like to hide in the pain
To convey the man who's insane
I've got no plan in this game
My brain says to quit everyday
But I continue to stay
This veil could go any day
My mind is the naysayer
This world now grayer
I tell myself I can't do
Only know me to rant to
Not intelligent
Just high function
The intelligent one can't function
I tell myself I can't
I need to accomplish goals
I tell myself that I can but
I'm insane
I'm the naysayer
In this life
I am gray
I'm the naysayer
I'm the naysayer
In this mind
In my mind
I'm insane
I'm the naysayer
In this life
I am gray
I'm the naysayer
I'm the naysayer
In this mind
In my mind
I can't find peace of mind
My best friend died cause I didn't say a damn thing
The less friends I got shows I'm alone in this mad dream
I will never wake up because I know what I've seen
While I'm alive in this mind I never will be free
I ain't no saint for that we can agree
I like to hike in the rain
To forget who I am from this pain
Dissociation is the only word i got to say
To show who I am within this brain
I know that I'm insane
I don't see this world in black and white
I hang on to life cause I'm gray
I'm insane
I'm the naysayer
In this life
I am gray
I'm the naysayer
I'm the naysayer
In this mind
In my mind
I'm insane
I'm the naysayer
In this life
I am gray
I'm the naysayer
I'm the naysayer
In this mind
In my mind