Left my apartment for the first time in two weeks, yeah
How was this started? Was I too young? Too weak to care?
And all the music sounds the same,
I'm the shell of the man that I tried to create,
Was it fate or am I to blame?
I'm trying hard just to understand why I can't be alone tonight,
As my life fades to white,
I am breaking to take it all back,
Can we go back and fix everything?
Or am I just a ghost that wants to keep on living?
Or am I just a ghost that wants to keep on living?
And all my friends are dead they got out ahead of me,
They live on the sidelines safe up on the streets,
And I don't know if I regret to leave them all behind,
But I can't keep pushing and pulling just stay alive,
Left all my t-shirts and a note for you to find
And I just don't know what I could tell you,
(What we've been through)
Just want to put my arms around you,
And I don't know what more I could say,
(To make things okay)
But I don't want to just walk away,