Antdesu - hypnosis Lyrics

In the back of the class kept quiet
Wish I was that type of kid
Times I'm with you, I stay silent
I hate that I did
Times you yelled, I wouldn't mind it
Ways to escape, I wouldn't find it
Anyone ask, I would hide it
Stopped my tongue, I would bite it

You kept me like detention
I cried for your attention
I said yes without knowing your intentions

I didn't ask for you to hate me
I didn't ask for you to die
You're the person that made me
And I only ask, why did you not love me like I loved you
It must be that you

Just didn't see what I thought you saw, whoa
Was I different than what you thought, or no
Baby I can't take no time I just wanna know
You don't even gotta tell me, you can just show

Would it hurt to give an answer
What do you have against me
Didn't you take a chance with me
Didn't you have a dance with me

This feeling feel like cancer
Didn't you love me once
What were you thinking
I thought you did it for us

Hey, you wonder why I don't date
You wonder why I don't mate
Being alone is just my fate
I'm in my home and I still get hate
They call me trash when they know I ate
They talking online but they don't come in my state
I poured three cups of despair, see how much you take

Count how many of my smiles that I fake
I've been here for a while, but I'm like a snake
I'm putting in effort and you just hatin' what I make
Going up under radar like a gator in a lake

Too crazy, psychotic, I pipe up when you say pipe down
I get everybody hyped up when you quiet down
Come in the scene, I light it up, why you silent now
I'm not the boy for you to be starting a fight now

And I take my stand and I condone my mistake
I accept the fact that you not my bae
You don't need me to give you my plate
But I accept your decision was made

I tried my best to be the boy you want me to be
I tried to be that boy that you desired
Do you hate me or was that a lie
Did you even notice how much I tried

I know I get tired of all the animosity
Too many girls, too many boys, all they want from me
You never say how you ever even loved me
All you said was what you wanted from me

Still in high school and I'm hating all the facts
It's been like two years and I ain't say I want you back
If I wanted to, I would've already got you back
But I'd just be begging and you already know I hate that

Times I said that I missed you, I faked that
Messages I wrote from last year, yeah, I paste that
Have everybody around me asking, whoa, he made that
Got us telling everybody, yeah, we go way back

Me loving you again, I can't face that
I love seeing you broken while I just lay back
I hope you feel my revenge, yeah, taste that
I never thought in a year I would say that

I never asked for you to hate me
I never asked for you to die
You're the person that made me
And I only ask why
Did you not love me like I loved you
It must be that

You hated how I made it farther than you ever did
You always forgot how I was just a kid
Do you see what you gave up
Do you see what you missed
I was your wish and I was your first kiss
I was on your list
I was the man that you asked to be sent
I was the man that you seen when you dreamt

(Hahaha, does that mean you didn't want me)

I didn't ask for you to hate me
I didn't ask for you to die
You're the person that made me
And I only ask why
Did you not love me like I loved you
It must be that