AnthonyxJohn - Silent Halls Lyrics

Yeah
I just
I just can't understand
How you walk into a school and you just shoot it up?
Then walk out that same school and just kill yourself like you ain't do enough
Wish I was with you before you went mental, before all the crying and funerals
So I could tell you to loosen up and bruise you up, you stupid f*ck
Bet you just want everybody to feel how you feel and that's feeling sad don't you?
'Cause your life is just so tough, feeling like Usher, yeah you got it bad don't you?
You really hate them, nah you hate yourself but you feeling mad aren't you?
Go and get the gat that dad showed you.
Like you a snitch and just put it on blast, won't you
Should smack the f*ck out you right now. I don't give a f*ck bout you right now
I don't give a f*ck bout your lil' girl problems, first world problems like wow
That's all the root of your problems so you go shooting to solve 'em
They ball in the room and they balled up
You coulda brawled them but you rather watch 'em fall just like autumn
Tryna' grave plot 'em
Come over here son, come take a looksy
Just 'cause you ain't getting no pussy, don't mean be a pussy
And you had a crush and she crushed your heart, you think she a bully. Believing it fully
So you crush her parents lives like a toy, like stepping on Woody
"Oh no you mistook me"
Nah you don't care if they all begging, you just wanna get lost up in Los Vegas
You gon' go claim insanity, don't wanna hear that shit, dickhead we all crazy
Yeah and now a mass shooting at church is literally a mass shooting
We just need love, we need more Gandhis, we need black panthers, we need Cam Newtons
But you over here, oh dear just playing the victim
No easy way out 'cause either you die or they gon' convict him
And if they convict him
I'm coming through like you and blasting everyone like you in the prison
'Cause if you so sick then I'm telling my dogs to just sick em
I'm lifting the stick up like this shit a muf*ckin' stick up
They thinking oh look I'm no better then you
Maybe that's the only way I'm getting it through
I'm speaking your language, let's make reservations
Let's get us a table, let's set it for two
And let's talk about it
Walk up out it with new feelings or head up settle between me and you
I agree with abortion and choices 'cause garbage like you
We knew should have been dead in the womb
Giving us skinny, shy white boys a bad name, damn shame
Barley know her, wanna give your last name then plain
Stalking her from places from a damn train, airplane,
Bus stop, gas station from your COD campaign
Like "You're so beautiful", "haven't said two words to you" bad case of acne
Face up on a rampage
Haven't showered in probly' five and a half days
Mad when she says "no" , God damn that's cray
Do you hear yourself?
Wanna kill somebody? F*ckin' kill yourself
I should have shorty come here and strap you to a chair
And beat the shit out of you herself
Actually, should have the whole student body
Come give you a body 'fore you do yourself
But before I do, let me talk to you, let me try and level with you for now like
Yeah
Let me um
Let me try and level with you for real
Yeah
I bet you keep replaying everything they ever said to you
Got that chopper there and it makes sense to you because like you to them
Everyone's dead to you
But you have a heart, I know it, just wanna be noticed but they all forgetting you
Just want the feeling of feeling incredible because you never do
You gon' regret it dude, You put the
Average person on a pedestal, they perfect tens to you
Don't value yourself so how the f*ck could they think less of you, feeling dispensable
Feel even if you were better you never prove yourself
The playing field never be leveled you
Feeling off balance just like your brains chemicals
Therapists the only ones that will tend to you
But even that's they're job, they make a revenue
Put on a schedule and get a check just to check wit you
Act like they care and give meds to you
Go home and leave work at work and forget what they said to you
Way too shy to talk to girls, before these shots
These were these shots that you'd never shoot
Built up the courage to shoot one, you grew some but you get laughed off
Don't know what that meant to you
Feeling alone, you got no body and think they ahead of you
Nothing ever goes your way, suicide with bullets is the only way somethings lead to you
And the truths hard to swallow, it gives you a high though
It comes out the blue, it's an edible
That's anxiety you'd didn't get to choose rushing through you
Because your not correctable
And the things you enjoy you get shit for
Cry in your room as you die in it too, you surprised you even made this far
Eyeing the tool, that's the irony too
'Cause you feel you always getting picked on but never picked on
For gym or from girls or for anything. Try to fit in but the fits wrong
You should get gone
'Cause I feel like that too
Why you think I rap dude?
Got dumb ass tattoos
So I think I'm that cool
Say I'm brainwashed without no shampoo
You think you can't win, you think they can't lose
You feel you trapped, you feel you can't move
Look in the mirror while in your bathroom
And instant sad mood, like "F*ck God, Damn you
F*ckin' made me that? you couldn't make me careful?"
But none of that's true. Bearer of bad news, everybody got they problems
Some people just really know how to hide 'em
Disguise 'em or have role models to come guide 'em
Maybe if you had a friend who cared about you
You got to the bottom like me with a bottle
Maybe 'stead of treating you just like a shadow, so shallow
I shout out "Come over here and be my friend brother"
And not just pretend brother
Show some compassion for that kid
Cause no one ever thinks of him, he don't get others
Wait, I see what I'm doing
Feeling like I'm the f*ckin bully too
And I can understand the situation you in
And maybe I could have just weathered the storm while that storm was brewing
And stop all the shooting with you and me