Anti - Addictive Personality Lyrics

I'm dying from the way I live
Abuse everyday til my body gives
One day I'll fix it all
Sniff up my problems as my mind dissolves
You won't fix me, no one cares
Same old story, except now I'm there
Pushed to the limit, my mind is gone
Drugs feel right when my life is wrong
Curse the day
I live at night
Wasted a decade
Might end my life
Time to face the pain or continue to fade
Can't remember how I f*cked up my brain
I carry all this weight on my mind
It's hard to unsee
Try so hard to forget a past
That I can't believe
Finally awake
I feel defeated by my selfish ways
I have no excuse for my
Addictive personality
Where did I go wrong in life
It's blurred and vague
Where did I lose sight
Where's the first mistake
I've shunned the past from my mind
It makes me feel insane
Holding onto shit that's gone
Life's a sick and twisted game