Anvbis - Limbo Lyrics

It's like my vitals are slipping
My will to live is in flux
My stomach's tied up in knots
I'm skipping rope with my guts
Anxiety cripples me and it gets harder to breathe
My lunges could cave any minute and I'd be happy to leave
You say it's all in my head but I'm afraid of my thoughts
So why the f*ck would I dwell inside a place I feel lost
No, you don't know what it's like to welcome death like your kin
I'm shaking hands with the reaper like I've dying to meet him
Believe me when I confess that I've been a sour mess
The jester in my sorrows and mourner at my best
My intrusive thoughts seem to rival your detest
If this is hell, it isn't funny but it feels like home nonetheless
Prove me wrong
Tell me I'm not useless
I'm dying just prove it
All hope is gone
Slipping through my fingers
The pain is all that lingers
Write me a sad song
Something so tragic that Shakespeare would weep
The Devil must be lonely down below waiting for me
Forgive me for my sins or drive the nail right through my palm
If my soul cannot be saved then let me die alas God
I've memorized the walk through hell
What makes this so different
I'm not the only sinner here
No one's f*cking innocent
Sometimes the world seems so beautiful in black and white
Once you get comfortable in grayscale heaven it's so sublime
I overdose like my own strain of heroin
Father forgive me for I have sinned
I've traded in my honor for penmanship
If this is paradise I want no part of it
That's wishful thinking but the well is dry so I'm collecting pennies for my thoughts just to have a few
Though I still dwell on the ones where I was mad at you
My mental state is a paradigm and it shifts something beautiful in my madness
Even paradise is a prison when you can't leave
But this isn't Paradise
So pull me out of this paradigm
Pull me out