Anxious Boy - Rearview Thoughts (Remember That) (feat. Pandrés) Lyrics

I'm sitting here alone anxious thoughts running through my brain
Always praying, never saying, things'll never be the same
I'm lost, I'm low, can someone help me see
Always crying out for help, but the past won't let me be

I can't sleep, I can't speak, I can't even think straight
Where to go, what to do, only fueled by self hate
Concentrate, concentrate, focused on my history
I can't even open my eyes to see what's in front of me

I'm trying to grow, trying to be a better man
Trying to see the bigger picture, trying to build a better plan
But I can't, but I can't, but I can't seem to do it
One chance too many, and I already blew it

I'm a walking disease, flirting with disaster
Hard to fix myself yelling faster, go faster
Never wanted control, never claimed to be your master
I'm sorry that it seemed that way, call the broadcaster

Welcome to my show, we don't pretend here
What you see is what you get, this ain't no Shakespeare
But Juliet, oh Juliet, where is my Juliet
This Romeo is wide awake and I'm not over yet

I thought you were the one, I thought it was you
Flipped my world upside down, made me see a different view
Now it's funny, ain't it funny, gotta find someone new
That's just how life goes man, tear, tear, boo-who

You're making me sick (oh)
Not trying to nit pick (oh)
Just wanted to be loved, as I loved you
Your insidious thoughts made this untrue

Begging for me back (oh)
Got sucked in the trap (oh)
I thought we could work it out, but you aren't loyal
You keep putting my brain in turmoil

Blame me all you want, but you need to see yourself, too
Made you my focus, while I was in your rearview
One day I'm your soulmate, and the next I'm gone
But I'm the crazy one, just trying to hold on

I yell, I get jealous, getting even madder
Always feeling like I never even matter
All this chitter chatter, watching lies get fatter, as I get even sadder
I'm an anxious boy now, that's the f*cking subject matter

Never wanted a future, never wanted a life
Wanted to kill myself, f*ck a knife
I'm crazy, crazy, all you see is crazy
Tell the truth, girl, you confuse loyalty with lazy

I am a victim, just like you
A slave to my mind and everything that I went through
Better check your facts before you come at me with shit untrue
Or else you're digging up a grave that you just can't undo (DAMN!)

Remember when you called me daddy
Remember when you called yourself a baddie (Remember that)
Remember when you called me cryin', always lyin', blamed spying (Uh-huh, remember that)
Remember you blowin' up my phone, no friends, all alone (Uh-huh, remember that)
Remember who was there for you girl (Remember that)

You're making me sick (oh)
Not trying to nit pick (oh)
Just wanted to be loved, as I loved you
Your insidious thoughts made this untrue

Begging for me back (oh)
Got sucked in the trap (oh)
I thought we could work it out, but you aren't loyal
You keep putting my brain in turmoil

You're making me sick (oh)
Not trying to nit pick (oh)
Just wanted to be loved, as I loved you
Your insidious thoughts made this untrue

Begging for me back (oh)
Got sucked in the trap (oh)
I thought we could work it out, but you aren't loyal
You keep putting my brain in turmoil

You're making me sick (oh)
Not trying to nit pick (oh)
Just wanted to be loved...