AP Macroeconomics - livin'/dyin' wrong v0 (or, demoitis) Lyrics

And I'm in a new space
I don't have the brain for metaphors right now
But all the things I couldn't name, I'll get them out somehow
I'm not trying to be cramped up sick and sweated out
I'm getting good for better's sake
I'm getting worse at wearing out
I'm letting myself be okay with opening my mouth
Even if you are around

I know too much about myself
But that won't stop me from downward spirals and seeking help

I'm borrowing a phrase
A song I wrote four years ago by now
'Cos it's still something that I say with no one else around
I just thought I'd get it out
And given time I'll use the phrase
That I would sing on scooter brakes how
A line about the friends I have and shadows that I make
And whether I can get them right
Other nights I get ride

I know too much about myself
But that won't stop me from downward spirals and seeking help
I guess I just need anything to cure the vertigo from
Looking down on myself
And I don't know how to feel
And I don't know how to feel